Encounter

I've become complacent with a lot of things in my life. Maybe I'm just don't do well with change, because I've really been struggling with loneliness lately. 

Friendships, particularly the day-to-day ones, have not come easily or quickly. More often than not I just feel invisible, between stages of life. I'm not in college anymore--and haven't been for a while even though 75% of the time I mistaken for a college or high school student (which I find more annoying than complementary!)--and I'm not in baby mode yet, but I can't seem to find the comfortable place between the two. 

And because it's practically summer and work-life looks different during this time of the year, I've been preparing for next year's leadership. Yay for planning and working ahead! But in this time I've been listening to 'sermons' from Fellowship Bible Church, my former church in college town, Tennessee.

I simply love that church. I love the welcoming people, I love the pastors' transparency , and I love that I am known, really known, by people there. But more than all that I love that I was always fed the Word of God. 

One of the biggest struggles we've had since moving to small town, Virginia is finding a church-home. I guess I thought this process would be easy. I guess I thought I would find a church I love and be welcomed in. I guess I thought getting involved in said church would be a quick place to make friends.

So after closing in on two years, I have to ask: Are we just settling?? How long do we stick something out hoping things will change but still having to be fed elsewhere?? Is it okay to leave every week wanting so much more? Or do I just need an attitude change?!

Oh how we want a place where we encounter God in his Word and Spirit and encounter true, genuine relationships.