With Abandon

Sometimes I'm not good at showing emotion correctly. I've never been one of those girls who shrieks and giggles with excitement over a surprise. I am not overly outgoing. I don't like being put on the spot or the center of attention unexpectedly. And sometimes insecurities just get the best of me and I simply don't react with the excitement I should. 

I'm like this concerning God too. He is worthy to be praised. But too often I hold back. I don't want to be seen as the 'religious' or 'overly spiritual' one so I hold back. I do it with adults, peers, and high school friends alike. 

I love the rare moments when I hold nothing back in my praise of Him. Those moments which are of overflowing joy and gladness. After my first senior year of college (yeah I unexpectedly had two senior years!) I made a last minute decision, flew to California, and volunteered at a camp for a month. 

One night stands out specifically. God had been doing a lot of work in me over my time in Cali. And one night my dear friends and I were in the club room and suddenly we broke out dancing with abandon. Dancing to praise Him. It's one of my favorite memories. I felt amazingly free and alive in those moments.

He has restored and redeemed me. 

He is faithful and trustworthy. 

He is enough.  

My dear friends who live so far yet love so much :)